Mi espanol no es muy bueno.

Yo vivo en una casa

con mis amgios Joan y Tommy.

A noche playamos Yahtzee

y tiene mucho hambre para la cena.

Nosotros tenemos tres perros, y dos gatos,

uno loro, y tres tortugas. Hay mucho

amor en nuestra casa! Yo espero

que yo y usted tienen una dia muy bueno!

He looks in on me the eyes of God

A bird is perched on the telephone wire
across the street and outside my window.
He has his eyes on me as he sings a beautiful song.

Don’t paint it black

I don’t understand some things. I don’t understand a lot of things. I don’t understand why some people have billions of dollars and others get $7.25 an hour, or so, working in their stores. It doesn’t seem fair, now does it; but whoever told us that life is fair?

I am happy living below the federal government’s poverty line level. I don’t know if I would be happy with billions of dollars.

“Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God."—Matthew 19:24

Does five billion dollars make you happy?

Then why you still have to sell high
pay low?

My penis has sleep apnea

It snores and keeps my lover

awake at night.

It’s what they do

Some people write books.

Some people sing songs.

Some people paint pictures.

Some people work on their car’s engine.

Some people grow gardens.

Some people walk their dogs.

Some people feed their turtles.

Some people kill others for their money.

Monotony Multiplied

Forever staging pictures you look

in the mirror and don’t see you.

No need to re-write

Hunter Thompson is dead.

He put a bullet in his head.

Can you imagine being

his son finding him in the kitchen?

I heard the son blew off rounds

from a shot gun outside the house

after he found his daddy dead.

Maybe his dad’s death didn’t

bother him like it bothered me.

You never know if you can believe

what you read in the magazines.

Who are they?

We were talking about them yesterday,

those “they,” who we blame for everything.

Who are they exactly?

June 26, 2013

I’m interested in listening to the song, “Pissed off and mad about it,” by a group called Texas Hippie Coalition, a four piece outfit that looks like a gathering of Hell’s Angels straight out of Hunter Thompson’s great book, “Hell’s Angels,” but the heavy metal intro proves to be too much for me to take at 5:45 am. Mostly, I listen to George Harrison at this time of day. I find the spirituality of his music to be a soothing way to ease into a new day. Today, I opt for Josef Islam’s greatest hits. I find the man formerly known as Cat Stevens’ songs to be soothing also. Despite the Bush administration’s opposition to Mr. Islam’s entrance into our country I find his music very spiritual. Did you know that George Bush does not much leave this country because there are warrants for his arrest in many countries around the world?

Blackberry Smoke, a homegrown Atlanta band, are going to appear on Jay Leno on July 10. I am really proud of these guys. I love their music and know that they have worked hard, very hard, to get where they are today. It would not surprise me to see them opening for The Rolling Stones sometime soon! Congrats to singer/songwriter Charlie Starr, the Turner Boys, and all the band!

I don’t know what to do next about my brother Tommy’s situation. He has been referred to a neurologist, but we don’t have the money to see one. I am praying hard on this matter, and would appreciate your continued prayers and positive vibrations.

He appears to be suffering from niacin poisoning. It is eating his system up, causing him to go blind, among other things, but no one knows how to treat it. Sucks.

Despite this challenge, I am looking forward to this day. They say that God does not give us more than we can handle, and I believe this. I have faith. I have faith that today will be a good day for me, and for you. God bless us all.

Joan taught my brother, Tommy, and I how to play Yahtzee, tonight. Tommy bought us a pizza, and then beat Joan and I at Yahtzee. I used to get bored playing board games, but had fun tonight. Joan is trying to remember how to play backgammon so that she can teach Tommy and I how to play.

Tommy and I have been playing a lot of 21, while we try to figure out what his next move should be medically. He is suffering from niacin poisoning. It is eating all his muscles away, and is causing him to go blind.

I’m reading a book that I can’t put down. It is called, “Caged,” and it was written by Cameron Conaway. It is a memoir of a young man finding his way in the world as an MMA fighter and a poet. The early scenes that Cameron depicts with his violent father remind me a lot of what Tommy and I went through with our dad, though our dad was not as brutal, physically, as Cameron’s was to him at a very young age.

A friend of our family was shot to death while working at his small jewelry store, today, in Villa Rica. One of the four fucking piece of shits who killed him has been caught. He’ll narc out the other three, and I hope that the state puts a bullet in all four of their heads after torturing them slowly.

Dear God: why must this shit happen?

St. Francis was torn between a life devoted entirely to prayer and a life of active preaching of the Good News.— Leonard Foley

Isn’t there a passage in the Bible
about passing through the eye of a needle?
Google is such a great mechanism.
Using it I found: 

“Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God."--Matthew 19:24

I am not going to point fingers at anyone here. I am just going to reflect upon this passage as it relates to my life.--K

George Harrison sings to me

as he does many mornings.

He has become my favorite Beatle.

I find his spirituality refreshing.

I have three dogs, two cats, a bird,

and three turtles gathered about me

in this room that I call a home office.

My middle name is Francis

and I am reminded that St. Francis was

the patron saint of animals.

Mikel K

……………………………………..

Francis of Assisi was a poor little man who astounded and inspired the Church by taking the gospel literally—not in a narrow fundamentalist sense, but by actually following all that Jesus said and did, joyfully, without limit and without a mite of self-importance.

St. Framcis really believed what Jesus said: "Announce the kingdom! Possess no gold or silver or copper in your purses, no traveling bag, no sandals, no staff" (see Luke 9:1-3).

--Leonard Foley, O.F.M.

My baby turtles, George and John, know that it is feeding time when I slide the cover to their cage back an inch, or so, so that I can drop bits of sun-dried red shrimp into their cage. They scurry to the edge of their aquarium where they know that their food will land. I find this to be a very cute and intelligent behavior. My turtles tickle my funny bone. When they are done eating their shrimp, I drop green floating food pellets in to them. They then, happily, devour these. Feeding my turtles is a very pleasant way to start my day. 

Not hands on

I laid on three different tables, this morning
at the chiropractor's office. On the last table
the good doctor laid his hands on me, giving
me a sort of massage. My brother says that
giving full adjustments is hard on a doctor's
hands, so as they age they rely more on machines.

Today is a new day

and we will see things

that we have never seen before

though we may not realize

that we are seeing them. 

A note on hitting like

I like when you like

what I write. It is payment

in lieu of the big bucks

that I am not making

with the words!!

Even doctors are imperfect

He keeps telling them what is wrong with them.
"I took too much niacin," he says to doctor after doctor,
and each one shakes his head saying, "No, that is not it,"
but they do not come up with anything that is it.

Prayer

He is down to skin and bones;

all muscle gone, all faith that

there is hope faded. The Doctors,

so far, can find nothing wrong.

People are praying for him

and I have faith that his tides

can be reversed: Oh Lord, please

help my brother Tommy return

to good health.

One hand three dogs

Morrison comes up and sticks his nose on my knee

as I am typing my morning poems. I scratch his head

and give him a spine rub. Dylan comes up and sticks

his nose on Dylan’s back. I take my hand off of Morrison

and start petting Dylan’s head. Penni comes up and

pushes Dylan’s head away wanting my hand to be on her.

But it moves me

Let the music take your soul

It’s only rock and roll.

I spent the afternoon with my brother, Tommy, at the hospital this afternoon. He was in better spirits, today, though the doctors have still not figured out what is wrong with him. The doctor who came in while I was there said that they were going to do a brain scan, as well as hormone testing of some kind. He didn't seem to buy into Tommy's feeling that he was suffering from niacin poisoning, as most doctors don't. The doctor said that he would check into that if what he was checking failed. At times like this, I just have to have faith, and pray real hard, that someone can figure out what is wrong with my brother. I would like to thank my friends Annie, Sallie, and Cyndi for helping me out with tip money for a tank of gas. You guys rock!!!

We’ve got to keep it together

Bit by bit. Piece by piece.

Searching for peace.

Move On

When you feel that you can’t

carry on; that is when you must

move on.

There is a lesson in this

I can’t always get the earth to move.

Often I can’t even get the refrigerator to move.

Lately it occurs to me

I turn 56 in four hours and 37 minutes. I feel young, yet I look old.

I should look a lot worse considering that I spent 20 years “out there” on the booze trail. My liver is good. My love life is good. My kids are good (or at least I am not catching them at anything; never did). I have more to be thankful for than I do to bitch about.

I hope that I live to be one hundred. I like old age. I don’t fuck up like I used to. I have not seen the inside of a jail cell, or mental institution, in almost 23 years, which just happens to coincide with how long it has been since I have taken a drink. I have good friends: on here, and in the “real” world. I have Joan, the dogs, the cats, the turtles, and the bird. What more could a man want?

June 19, 2013

The wants to escape artist

The turtle eats quickly

and then spends the rest of her time

trying to escape from the feeding container

where she finds herself twice a week.

Lately it occurs to me

The first albums that I bought
as a kid, back when albums
were albums, were, "Pearl,"
by Janis Joplin, and "The Low
Spark of High Heeled Boys,"
by Traffic. I bought these albums
at a sale in back of a police station.
I am listening to Traffic, right now,
as I type this. Funny how some
things never change.

I might need someone to lay their hands on me

I start the day by activating

my massage chair hoping for

some relief from a pain

in my back that feels like

someone has stuck a knife

in the middle of my back.

I have been going to a chiropractor

for months. He never uses

his hands to make adjustments

just machines that I lay on.

Before I snore

I don’t count sheep at night when

I go to bed. I count my blessings.

I am counting my blessings, again, today. I have such a rich life, full of much love. Joan, and I, figured out that I can go to the gym before she goes to work, and get a swim in, so I hit the pool yesterday, and today. It feels great to be back in the water. My weight is down to 231 from 286. I have 21 more pounds to lose to get to my goal of 210. The pool helps with this, as does weighing my food, and eating only 32 ounces of food in a day. I don't fully understand how I landed where I landed, but I thank my higher power for his assistance!

My God is good;
I hope that he is working for you, too.

(I see my God as A Higher Power,
who I choose to call God. I have no
idea what he, she, or it looks like. I
just know that when I have faith that
a power greater than myself is running
the show, things work best for me. A
life run on self-will, in my case, is one
that will run amok.--Mikel K

I’m not scared of dying;

I’m scared of living in fear.

Best to know what you think

I’m sure that

there are people out there

who think like I do,

but how do I find them?

All I want is some peace of mind

 Make a million dollars

 why don’t you…I’m watching

 the wheels go round and round

 like a dead Beatle once sang.

Engaged

I don’t know what tomorrow might bring

but I’m about to buy her a ring.

1. Neil, as I am sure you well know,
   a man doesn't need a maid; a man
   needs love just like a woman.
   
   --Mikel K
   
   It's hard to make that change
   When life and love turns strange.
   And old.
   
   ... To give a love, you gotta live a love.
   To live a love, you gotta be "part of"
   When will I see you again?
   
   Neil Young

What more could a man want?

Like Neil Young, I am growing old.

Except for my back, I feel better

than I have ever felt. I am in love

with a wonderful woman; my kids

are happy, and healthy, as well as

my grand kids; I have food to eat,

and beautiful shelter. What more

could a man want?

There must be a reason for this

The Lord let me keep

my teeth through all

the blacked out drunken brawls,

thus letting me keep my smile.

If they’re dying over there

you could be dying here.

Everybody wants to be free.

Freedom must be defined; 

it's not the same to everyone.

Should I say oops or talk about choices?

 I’m a great mind.

 Well, I was a great mind

 but I blew my mind

 with drugs and alcohol.

 I shattered the doors

 of perception, but when

 I knocked on Heaven’s Door

 it was closed.

The only prayer I remember from my younger days,
in The Catholic Church, is The Lord's Prayer. I've been
praying a lot for our friend, Lil Reg, today and I prayed
The Lord's Prayer many times today. It really is a great
prayer and speaks to me greatly now that I have slowed
down and listened to it.--K

I've always prayed, even when I quit believing in
churches, and priests, and pastors. I have faith
though I can not say exactly what I have faith in.
Faith gives me hope and strength.

Comcast is funny, and I use the word lightly. I found this
great deal on the internet: 14.99 a month for a year, plus
a 35.99 installation charge.

K recovered. Kinsella is still out there.

What I m going through

What I am going through

might seem familiar to you

because you have gone through it, too.

Written at an awful time

I’m sure that what you are going through

is awful, just like what I am going through

is awful. There is an awful lot of awfulness

going around.

I ve lied and I ve been lied to

Not sure where I’m going with this one.

I want to point the finger at her.

Things change.

I like this title, but really have nowhere

to go with it but the title…

Profound K Thought of The Moment:

You can’t say that you are bohemian.

Either you are or you’re not, and you

don’t have much to do with it.

There is nothing more to life

than this and that. This and

that have to be dealt with.

And then you move on.

People suck when they don’t do

what I want them to do.

And when I want nothing

from them, they are fine.

A brief moment with David Herrle

David Herrle As Charlie Manson said to Marlin Marynick: "It looks like we have the intelligence to stop the damn pollution. It shouldn't be a big thing...Do you realize how many toilets are taking the water off the land

Mikel K Poet Did you just compare me to Charles Manson, David?

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David Herrle Certainly not. He's a piece of shit!

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Notes from a man under the influence

Under the influence of love.

Of dope. Of stupidity. Of charm.

Of perseverance. Of money.

Of things. Of waves on an ocean

a long way away. 

I ll always be in the whole

Ain’t no fortunate son

I ain’t the one.

There are parallels between you and others

but you are not someone else.

Hey I’m not going to pay you

The movers are coming.

Where are we going?

Am I going with you,

or is it me who is moving?

Ive gotten to know each section and aisle of the store.

I stay away from the wine aisle

but I’m not scared of it like I used to be.

If the soda is on the same aisle as the wine

I will go down there and get me a bottle

of ginger ale. I don’t always get me a yogurt

but somedays I do. I buy milk. I know

that it is bad for me(and the cow), but

what can you do. I can drink my coffee black

with stevia and ice, thank you, but I prefer not to.

Thank you.

I’m starting to sound like an old Rod Stewart song

I say this, and the next song is him singing

“Here Comes The Rain,” by CCR.

Last Night

She said that she got into the bed, last night,

smelling like cut grass and sweat, and that I

didn’t notice; wouldn’t even talk to her… I’m

like that when I’m asleep!

I ll be right behind you with no noose

I’ll bet that somewhere

there is someone

doing worse than me.

If you really needed me

I would always see you

with a smile on your face.

Isn t it amazing how with all the billions

of people on this earth that you can still

do something that no one will ever know about?

If you could do one thing undetected,

what would it be?

Everybody just smiled

He showed up at the door of AA

saying, “Give me three steps,

and a sponsor. I’m ready for that

fourth step, this time.

When?

When to keep your mouth open,
and when to keep your mouth shut?

K

Oh my God. How do I find

these kind of people? Or

how do they find me?

How are you today?

I’m avoiding County Jail

and State Prisons.

I’m not trying to figure out

what day it is in a mental institution,

so it’s a pretty good day.

I see you

I see what I am is holding me down.
I see what I am is holding you down.

I ve been given

I’ve been given

a body and a mind

by The Lord.

My body hurts a lot

and nobody understands

my mind.

K

Confession

When you got down

on your knees, Jesus

started to pray.

But there was something about you

You weren’t much in the kitchen.

Often got speeding tickets in the car.

Stayed out late. Quit jobs.

But there was something about you.

The State Senator

“Are you still with that chink?”

“My husband isn’t a chink,”

said the young lady.

“He’s a Mexican.”

“Well, aren’t Mexicans chinks?”

said The State Senator.

Everything seems

a drag.

I’m surrounded by guitars

that I’m still paying for

that I’m not playing.

I’m off the pink pill

and feeling normal: depressed

and lethargic. Everything seems

a drag.

Have you ever stolen/they are after you

Have you ever stolen a candy bar?

A pair of sneakers? An hour off the clock?

A car. A bottle of whiskey from behind

the bar when the bartender had her back

turned? An airplane ticket? A magazine?

A heart? A soul? A mind?

Don’t steal the glass

Breakups are not as much fun as beginnings.

Don’t you wish that everything could be a beginning?

Sometimes one sandwich is like no sandwich

Have you ever been someone's means to an end?

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Mikel K Poet: “Sometimes, one sandwich is like

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Mostly

In certain very small places, I am a big man.

Mostly, I’m just another schmuck standing in

line waiting to pay for groceries, though. 

I am trying to teach the baby turtles how to feed in a container outside their home, so they won’t poop in their water and make it dirty. Supposedly, turtles poop right after eating. They make a huge mess. If you feed them in a separate container you will not have this problem: no mess to clean up. 

Clicking onto the News Website

Maybe there will be a new story.

How many more people who were famous

but I never heard of them have died

since the last time that I clicked on

this News Website.

Lady bugs are beautiful

Lady bugs are beautiful

but in abundance I have heard

that they can be a pain in the ass.

To us

I have to agree with Joan, now. That bag of Party Mix The Ultimate Snack that we got at the dollar store was hot. It kind of snuck up on me, like this kid sitting outside the dollars store. He had a sign that said he needed something. He was more cheerful than a used car salesman. “Well how are you,” he said to me. I shot him a dirty luck and went on to do my dollar store shopping with Joan. When I got back the kid was still sitting there with his sign, but he didn’t say nothing to us.